The Monologue of Theta
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Posted:May 20, 2011 5:51 am
Last Updated:May 27, 2013 9:57 pm 15039 Views
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Agghhh...Why do i get this crazy feeling that the world and all the universe is mad at me...I dont have a lovelife, i dont have money (well, extra for fun), and sex life.The first and the second ones, badly needed in my daily existence, the third one, well, not that I want it every single day and night , just a warm body to hold and tell me silly things to make me smile and forget the everyday rigors of life. Someone to massage me is a plus, a bonus and a treat.
Hurrah for youtube, i voiced out all my sentiments singing my heart out to the tune of Alice Cooper's "How you gonna see me now", Rod Stewart's "First cut is the deepest", local Sampaguita's "Tao", not to mention Carpenter's "I need to be in love", and Bishop's "Something new in my life" among other songs, and yes, the melancholia of Mozart, Beethoven and Freud (?). Now, wait a minute, isnt the last one - the psychoanalyst? Gosh, im losing it. My id talking..or the ego? Which is which? Who cares? My questions deserved answers, who could give them? Can I ask PNoy? or Oprah? or even Osama? who wont give me the time of day especially now that he's 6ft under. Will they hear this nobody, obsessive, compulsive. love-deprived, over-age, neurotic (according to my psychologist friend, we all have the tendency to be crazy only in different levels individually),in my own vernacular street slang "walang wenta" trans: nonsense..hu hu hu..
Goodbye cruel world but hold on a minute...can I borrow Madam Auring's line in her song, "May asim pa ako..."? Nah..you're lost in translation, i'm not smelly like perspiration inspired. What I mean is that I still got what it takes for a man to fall in love with me, still sexy(?)at 40, smart(?), charming(yeah!)healthy, witty.The bottom line is "Oh God, please give me a lover!!" Make him kind and loving enough to understand my hormonal imbalance or pre - menopausal moods (whatever!),a wise man that will lead me to the "enlightened" path, resourceful for our material needs, and please please, a hunk, that i would want to wake up with a big grin on my face everyday. No, my Lord, that isnt too much, remember the last one you gave me? Did you hear me complained or even raised a finger to protest. I wont say anything much about him, i'll make a special monologue in his honor ha ha ha...
Maybe i'll just ponder on good things for now, my love is just out there, waiting for a sign. Whatever happens to this wacky life of yours truly, sweet, demure Theta, rest assured, a happy ever after ending. Ciao.
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Sex and Love
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Posted:May 12, 2011 8:17 am
Last Updated:May 27, 2013 9:57 pm 14551 Views
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Catchy title, hhmm... yes for both sexes. Sex for the Adonis male and Love for ever glowing eyes of lovestruck Venuses. Of course, preference also differs. Men (most - not everybody) tend to have sex without love.. lots of the time (pardon me Sir/s, you can deny or otherwise, its my blog anyway.) Thats pure lust, written on the wall. I wonder of a 100% satisfaction, like maybe doing things half heartedly. Hormones in action, cant blame them being the active sex, easily turn on by merely a glimpse of a female body, breast, buttocks and the most private parts. After orgasm, what? A little talk and then goodbye, maybe, "see you next time", depends on the recently conluded activity. According to Dan Brown's book - The Da Vinci code, the closest a man can get a glimpse of heaven and God is through climactic instant (orgasm) - Hieros Gamos. The belief held in respect by Priory of Zion's members.
While it took so much for a woman to jump into some strangers bed, always considering love before sex. Wishing to keep the man and the feelings after heat subsided, the ugly truth. Even those women whose business is "sex" - blindly grasping the faint flicker of hope that it must be the last man. Love and passion instead of sex and lust, anyone? Even the Kama Sutra is not all about love making and sexual behaviour, it is also a guide in other aspects of life, family and yes... Love.
Note: I hate to stop my blog here, but my minds in a turmoil for the conclusion, some other time when the grey cells at work again.
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dating and love
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Posted:May 10, 2011 9:10 am
Last Updated:May 27, 2013 9:56 pm 14954 Views
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My favorite place in the internet - dating sites. What do I really get from it? Mostly, come - on chats and not so truthful whatnots. Every now and then, I get the chance to talk to honest people, pouring my heart out only to discover two days later, some young and sexy lady (from here or other sites) took them away and lured them to loveland. Whew! Being young and sexy has its advantages, but i considered myself a novelty at 40 he he he..So much for being bitter about growing old, nah, whats age anyway? Positive numbers should have positive reactions, associations right?
Can I possibly find love here? I heard many success stories of love through internet. But should they shout out unsuccessful ones? I dont think so. Wild guess on the ratio is 70 - 30 favoring the sad sob stuffs. Still, i'm hoping to add my love story to the smaller number. I've been here long and i will be here until i have my elusive love, I know in my heart, for the millions seeking and searching, ONE of them belongs to me...Might be YOU!
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